When the Scaffolding Falls

What do any of us experience of this world

but our own nervous system?

Sending signals through our body,

that manifest as feelings

thoughts,

and memories

the same pattern of fear, desire, and anger

repeating themselves

over and over

stuck in the same loop.

Living the same moments again and again

like an apparition walking through an empty house

down the same corridor

past the same window

entering the same door

destined to repeat its movements

until

the pattern is broken.

How can these patterns of thought,

of conditioned desires and manipulated fears,

that keep us bound

be broken?

It is not by wishing

and not by will.

It comes in a moment

when the weight of the scaffolding

that we have built around ourselves,

made of delusion,

and the demands of others

that we have carried as our own,

and called

self,

becomes too heavy to hold.

It cracks, shifts,

falls in on itself.

And we let it go.

We surrender,

and see the vastness of what truly is,

what truly can be,

who we truly are.

Release any insistence

on control over the outcome.

Come what may.

Let the ego move through the heart,

not the nervous system. 

Free it from the prison of reaction

that pulses in patterns within us.

Once the ego finds its home in the heart,

it will discover its creativity, its power.

It will lead us

to each other

and to our truest selves.